What Comes to Mind?

Yknow what I have absolutely no objective for this whatsoever so lets just go with it.

Umm, what happened today?
It was pretty shit, cried in Drama because WE DO NOT HAVE A PIECE FOR MONDAY and I'm screwed. I cried a lot this week. That's pretty sad tbh.

Had a singing lesson it was decent. And music and PE and History which we had a freaking exam on Suffragettes and it's surprising how many white boys are sexist pieces of shit ohmy. Yes you are soooo right all I think of is dresses and babies.

I kinda hate some people when they just have to be so shit to everyone, like do you not know the boundaries of how badly you can treat someone ughh people frustrate me.


I changed my mind about my A levels, I'm not doing 2 dramas, that's ridiculous. Psychology,Drama, German and English Lit and Lang. But i think I might do English Lit only, it's a facilitating subject.


Don't even know if I wanna go uni or drama school.
Don't even know what I wanna do


Aghghghgh ramble


I freaking love the Beatles and I sound like such a try hard white girl but seriously tho, they just make me happy.

Photography and Shit

Alright Lads?

Unedited so don't judge me:P

Bye bye.

Confidence

                   This year I have really had to push myself confidence-wise because of multiple concerts, plays and exams I have participated in. At first I found this really hard and felt really shy, but I soon realised that I needed more confidence to perform my best.

         At my lowest point I was over-thinking everything and started to believe that nobody wanted to hear my opinion. I couldn't look anybody in the eye and most of the time I wanted the ground to swallow me up, it was pretty shit.

                  I think that I've managed to become more confident recently and I thought I'd tell you some of the tips I used cus y'know its a hard world out there.//

1. FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT
   I literally live by this. If you pretend to be confident, who could possibly know otherwise?
   
   
2. MAKE EYE CONTACT
   Not only will you feel more confident, you'll look more confident too!
   
   
3. BE PROUD OF YOURSELF
   Even if it's just a little thing like walking across a room without tripping, you did great! Have a mental high five!
   
   
4. ITS NORMAL TO HAVE LITTLE CONFIDENCE
   Not many people are 100% confident all the time, there will always be a moment when you feel a little bit silly but that's totally okay! Also realise that nobody cares if you mess up a little bit, whilst you;re thinking about it in the middle of the night, everybody else has already forgotten!
   
   
5. WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK?
   Seriously? It's such a waste of a short life to dwell on what other people think about you. You have one chance to achieve what you want with your life - you cannot afford to care about what people think. If people hate you? - It sucks to be them and they are missing out!

Exam Stress

I think that it is pretty darn difficult to find anybody currently in education who is not stressed about exams. I am currently in year eleven, my last year at high school, and I am finding the pressure placed on me almost unbearable. I feel that so much is expected of me everyday and that a lot of teachers don't understand that I TAKE MORE THAN ONE SUBJECT. 

Every time I'm not revising I feel so guilty, as if I'm ruining my future by not studying 24/7.

I know that it is worth working this hard but some days it is horrible to have to spend a whole day revising.

I just don't understand why so much pressure is needed and that many of the qualifications I will receive as GCSEs I will not even use.

I dunno, the systems corrupt and I'm stressed..?